Tuesday, April 5, 2011
Missing him so much
The house is quiet, Beau is asleep in his crate (he's such a good boy), Kayleigh is at school, and Kasey is in a Dora trance. I am watching Frodo's video, and I feel like my throat is being squeezed and my heart hurts. I MISS HIM SO MUCH. I can't get over how much. I feel guilty too. Frodo and I had a hard year. He was peeing on the floor so much, stealing food from the kids (snapping it out of their hands) and with the two young kids to care for I would get upset. He would crawl up in my lap and I would push him to the floor, and tell him to go lay down somewhere else. I didn't snuggle with him as much as we used to. I wish I had snuggled him more, and not gotten angry when he peed on the carpet. I wish he was here. I love him.
So in the meantime the family and I are crying and talking and remembering and cuddling our new little Beau.