This picture sums up a lot. This wall in our HOME. These pictures of our FAMILY, taken by people we love.
Yesterday I cried a lot. Happy cried. Pretty cries.
Yesterday was remembrance day. We honored the day by spending the morning at HOME, slowing down, making pancakes, creating a play scape, being together, enjoying what we have been given. I wasn't planning on talking to Kayleigh about 'remembrance' day...how do you explain that to a 4 year old. Later that day she came home from school with a poppy sticker and I asked if she knew why she was wearing it. She didn't and for some reason I sat down with her and put a remembrance day video on the computer for us to watch. I started crying while watching it and she asked me why? I explained to her WHY as best I could and she looked at me with these wiser than 4 years old eyes and said "Thank-you for telling me Mommy." (ps. later that night when I tried recount the story to Ryan at dinner she didn't remember what it was all about or was not interested any longer, kids.)
Then later that night as I was all cozied up in bed thinking of the day I had spent with the girls, I was completely overwhelmed with the feeling of being SAFE. and happy. and blessed. I laid there thinking how happy I am in our home. I am safe in our home. I love our family in this home. I love that we have food, and toys, and all of those things that make life 'easy, enjoyable, nice.' I love my hubby in this home.
The other day the girls told me that they LOVE THEIR FAMILY.
We are so blessed. I am so thankful.
We have bad days...and moments..and I yell a lot. But it doesn't matter.
PS. I have a strong need right now to give back to help. A few weeks ago we put together a family budget (have to help this Mommy act like a stay at home, single income family LOL) Well, this weeks budget has room in it...and I want to do something for someone else with that. Somehow I think it has more meaning for me if comes from 'my home money' if that makes any sense. So tomorrow the girls and I are going to pick out toys for other kids for Toy Mountain, and I am going to try and explain WHY to them.
PPS. You have to read this...its soul food.